Conclusion

The next day Saren was nice enough to come extra early to drive me to the airport for the early flight to go back to HK. At the airport, I had plenty of time to reflect on my last 13 days in Cambodia.

In all these time I have been so blessed by the Lord, seeing and doing so much things that many would never be able to see. As well, I felt the Lord has been with me all the time protecting me and showing me His way. I remember when I left Vancouver, I was having a bit of a cold. When I got off the plane, the cold was completely gone! On the plane, when a woman was coughing, I prayed to the Lord to heal her so that she won't spread the germs around, and then she never coughed again on the whole trip. When I left Vancouver, I've been having some stomach issues, but when I arrived at Cambodia, I didn't even have travelers diarrhea! It was completely the opposite when I went to Taiwan 1 year ago. And when I arrived, I hardly had any jet lag. When I came back, my jet lag didn't go away for more than a week! While traveling, I've had so much street food and even iced beverages, but I've never had any problem, until I ate in a fancy restaurant. When I took the malaria pills, I never had any side effects. In Kampot, when I went to the washroom outside in the morning, there were dozens of mosquitoes flying around in it, but I've never gotten any bite the whole 15 or so minutes there, for 2 mornings. All of them flew around and near me, but they never took any bite. I thought at the time that mosquitoes don't eat breakfast, but when I came back and searched on the Internet, I found out that they are most active during night and early morning! After that at another town, I had my legs all bitten even when I had DEET on and mosquitoes burner on. At all time I never had any problem with my belongings. At one time I even forgot my watch at the massage place, but the lady actually brought my watch back to me! There might have been so many other things that God protected me that I don't even realize! I believe this is the result of so many people prayed for me, and the Lord's way of showing me, I'm nothing but completely vulnerable without Him, but with Him, and in His will I could do everything!

At the airport, first I was quite tired because it was so early, but as I listened to 陳綺貞's 旅行的意義 and 陳昇's 航班116, the mood started to come in heavily. At the waiting area, I wrote this poem reflecting my thoughts on Cambodia, its people, and the missionaries helping there:

Your smile is so beautiful
Your eyes are so lovely
An innocent and kind look on your face
But your love is hindered
trapped in the reality
also known as poverty
My tears felt for you
My heart broken in search for an answer
In this mind boggling jigsaw puzzle,
I'm lost
I Became you

I want to remember your smile
I want to remember you eyes
I want to remember your every bit of kindness
I don't want to remember your sadness
I don't want to remember your hardships
I don't want to remember all the locked up doorways in your prison
So that I can have a light spirit
So that I can search for my own dreams
But I've became you now
I'm here to stay with you
As my soul wakes up
I'll smile with you, cry with you
Hopefully one day, our affections will move the doorways
Our love will touch the doors
Our smile will unlock the doors
So you can be released
So you can fly up so high